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| Ok, I'm back ppl. rippin and ready for action, not for school. VHS can kiss itz own a**. and spank it while itz at it. For anyone thatz still gettin my blog entries in the mail...this is my schedule.
1. Spanish II
2. Physics
3. English II
4. Algebra II
5. Chemistry
6. Ap Euro
Please tell me I'm not in a hell hole by myself...cuz someone could be fatally hurt... | | |
| Wow...now that I read it, that last entry was kinda harsh, but yet so true. I scare myself in the morning...its like im there, but not talking, thinking, or feeling...just typing. Talk about a sub-conscience. I used to sleepwalk really bad. one night at like three o'clock in the morning, i found myself outside on my back porch with a kitchen knife and the outside light was focused on me like spotlights that are on stages. the blade of the knife was pointed at my stomach and about an inch away when i woke up. All I wanna know is, if I had killed myself when i was asleep, would that have counted as a suicide or as a homicide? i would really like to know, lmao. I jus saw beauty shop with queen latifah today...and there was this stylist and he had a "manpurse". he said it was the newest fashion in mens wear. wtf would u do with a manpurse? jus get a fricken wallet like every other guy! heres another hypothetical question...is it for a really secure man that can get a purse and know he is still a male or iz it for the metro-type guys who couldnt decide between cross-dressing and lookin like a man but acting like a woman? can i get a witness? actually, instead, can i get an answer? or two while ur at it, thanx. itz not yet morning so im not vampiracious. i dont know if thats a word, but it should be. and if u cant get a clue what that means, clearly u must not hav been listening to ur english teacher in first grade. and yes, that was an insult, but i didnt say it. it all depends if u knew the what the word meant. if u knew what the word meant, good for u, no insult. for the rest of u who didnt, go back to kindergarten and to the free snacks and all the endless naps u got a grade for. weren't those the days? b4 i leave, here's another question for u to think about...when we didnt need naps back then, we got them. actually we were commanded to nap. now, when we need them, we dont get them. wtf iz up with that? itz insomnia, thatz what it iz. soon we'll be hallucinating...for those who havent started that iz. goodnight.
- Jman | | |
| Well...hasn't it been a while? Of course hardly anyone's goin to come here and I dont expect u to bcuz nobodys on xanga anymore. good for u guys. anywayz, when I had my old computer, it used to freeze up when I came on xanga. now...I hav a brand new one, so I can come on here anytime I like, which probably won't be often, since I'm pretty busy these days, so every once in a while, I'll come and give u an update...that iz if there's somethin to update. right now, itz 12:44 in the am and jus came from a party. usually, id still be there until 12 pm tomorrow, literally. but, tomorrow i hav to go to leesburg so i can get some new golf shoes, so that my feet can be water proof when i play golf. oh yeah, i made the golf team. i am playing on junior varsity, but currently i hav been moved up to varsity this year for a match this tuesday coming up. yes, im nervous...one jv guy and a whole team of varsity men, yes, i feel intimidated, but, to coach, i hav potential and can play better than some. WHATEVER. ive been dealing with a lot of personal stuff. i was planning this tuesday to go up o alabama and new orleans to help the ppl, but I hav school and the golf team to contend to. so thatz been thrown out. one of my ex-girlfriends( no names ) called me a little while ago and told me some shocking news...she had hooked up with a guy who told her how pretty she was, made some little chit-chat with her, u know, the flirty type, and jus really connected with her. they did "IT" and he left her. jus like that. im tellin you right now, if i did that, my conscience would literally kill me in my sleep. i can hardly hit a gurl without it haunting me. idk tho...plus, all im gonna say iz, i found out somethin about a distant but close family member that i should hav figured out a long time ago. and thats all im gonna say on that. and to add on another note, there is a gurl that i hav liked for a long time (since eighth grade). ive wanted to get rid of the feeling and i did for a while, especially over the summer. but even when i got back to school, i saw her i didnt feel any of it. but for the past 2 or 3 weeks i had been hanging with this gurl and i thought we seemed to get closer...the feeling started to come back, just a little. one day, i was hanging out with the gurl, one of my best friends and her "friend", more like her b/f. but w/e. anywayz, my best friend called me over and asked if i liked the "gurl", and i thought about it for a minute...i answered with a small innocent shrug. and i was about to tell her not to call the "girl" over, but she already had and told me to go away. later that evening, i was home and online and my "best friend" was on. she IMed me and said the "gurl" likes u (keep in mind, i had no idea what my best f/ and the "gurl" talked about). i told her ok and went on with my business. she said u 2 look good together, i went right on with what i was doing. that night, the feelings came back stronger. for the next week or two, i got closer with the "gurl" and finally, i got up the nerve to ask her out one morning. i seriously thought she would hav said yes at the end of the day. not so. she asked, can i tell u tomorrow? to make a long story short...she said no again. and all the while, ppl, behind my back, was probably down her throat about this, and i started to feel guilty. so the next two days, i hav the "gurl" on my mind, my family member, my ex- g/f's relations and not to mention all my h/w and golf practice. GUILT, in the middle of all these things. so i decided to talk to the "gurl" and try to apologize. i tried this twice, and she hardly said anything. so i didnt say anything to her. today, after third period spanish, one of my friends comes up to me with a sly, yet innocent grin on his face (i hav no idea how he does it). "she said yes," and i was like what the heck are u talkin about, cuz spanish class had got me all confused. [the "gurl" said yes.] and then the light bulb turned on. i meet her b4 i hav to go to class, and she confirmed it. then the light bulb blew. shes got me caught up and now i dont know what to do...shes really shy and i couldnt stand to ever hurt her, i care for her so much, me and my best friend hav a little surprise for ryan (yes i said a name), i know what he was tryin to do to the "gurl". of course, she duznt see it, but i hav the low down on him and his little friend tyrone, cuz even tyrone was trying to pick the "gurl" up. but now he's goin for one of my other best friends, tryin to sweet talk her, i got his low down too. i cant stand guyz who push gurls into walls and bruise them up and think theres no harm...what goes around comes around, suckas.
- Jman
...it iz now 1:30 am on the dot. im goin to bed (sry this was so long, but if u wanted to know what was goin on, there u go) have fun. | | |
| You think the last post was interesting? well, it was nothing compared to my life then...oh well. I'm back, it's a miracle isn't it? Shout outs to random ppl in the world comin to my xanga... ...glad u came. All my friends are gettin new xangas not to call any names... *coughARIELcough*. good news, im not changin mine, at least for a while. special events i need to update u on, i had a minor heat stroke while i was working for my uncle pea picking . u ask, "PEA PICKING?". yes, if ur makin fun of one of my jobs, ask urself this question, "do i hav a good paying job?". actually this question iz even better, "do i have a job at all?". Yeah, back to reality, my other job iz washing, waxing, and internally cleaning cars, trucks, vans, & S.U.V.'s. For 15-20 bucks, i do way better than soapy's. Another event i need to update u on is mary's pageant. mary williams. i was her escort ... congratulations to mary on winning 1st runner up and peers #1 vote to win grand prize . let me tell ya, it was hot up there on that stage and i wasnt even doing anyting. i know i wasnt the only one.
It's good to know that I'm still here for relationship trouble and advice...this past week i've had 3 ppl come to me for advice.  im not goin 2 say their names bcuz when u come to me, its confidential. this past week has been exaustingly boring and there was nothing i could do about it. i hav a feeling THIS week iz gonna be a t.v summer rerun jus like it. OH FREAKIN' WELL. bring it on...
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- call me- (352)- 591 - 1426 | | |
| Hey pimps and pimpetts. I'm bored out of my mind right. I could put a gun to my head and pull the trigger and have more fun than i am having right now. ppl that know me, know i wouldnt ever kill anyone (unless i had to) much less myself. but newayz, maybe the less fun i hav, the more fun sum1 else has. works for me.
-Jmn | | |
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